I'm not saying that you guys are being taken away, I just don't LIKE him at all.

Today merentas desa, tiring. After that 100m WTH~!!! But I din't go for 100m wuahahaha....

~L-A-K-S-A-M-A-N-A~

10/1/2011

Love being at school <3

Being at home doesn't feel right, BUT at least I have those homework to keep me occupied so that I won't think about those stuff.

I still can't believe I'm doing my homework XD and got my 1st CONVERSE, HOORAY.

Seeing the one you love being happy is full filling but seeing someone you love with someone you hate is always HARD LALALALA...

If that sentences is about me, it's ok. I felt nothing. Seriously LOL. I don't have those feelings anymore except for hatred so..... I'm not sad at all, I guess maybe homework is effecting my mind @_@

I still hate tuition, it's tiring. Maybe that's how form 4 life is. SIGH BYE~

School is tiring, but FUN when you can meet up with your friends and learn new things.

 I do dislike you. 

~LALALALALA Bye~

Hi guys, lol I bet no one is reading my blog anyway. So, It's been so long since I updated my blog. Ok, this time i'm totally letting out my feelings. Fully..... 

These days I have been thinking a lot or maybe it's just my mind thinks too much. I love you both so much that it's indescribable, and I know you both love me very much too. But sometimes I just don't get it, or maybe my mind really thinks too much. These few days you guys have been spending time in the room doing things, you both know what. I think maybe i'm extremely jealous, so don't mind haha... I'm thinking, what's so special about that person anyway. Maybe that person is really fun to be with and i'm totally not and boring. 

Yesterday I try to ignore you guys as much as I can, because I thought maybe if you don't love or care that much you won't get jealous or hurt more deeply. But it's hard to ignore both of you because I know it in my mind that I really do care about you guys. Maybe i'm just being selfish and don't wanna share both of you guys to the others. Then I think again and again, and finally maybe I should be happy that you guys are happy. I shouldn't be jealous because I can't always have you guys to myself. I'm sorry I ignored you...

That day after I took my PMR result I cried more because of what you guys said and not fully about the result. If killing someone without getting in jail, I would have done it already. Jk lol. It's not that I don't want to tell you guys about my feelings, it's just that if I tell you I scare I'll cry nonstop. So I try to hold it as much as I can. I love you guys so much ok? I try not to cry when typing this and I din't but before that I was, that's why I decide to write this post. 

Please don't cry after both of you read this, and i'm sorry if I hurt you guys. I'm really sorry, and i'm sorry I can't be fun and confidence that both of you want me to be. But i'm trying, okay I'm done expressing my feelings. LOVE YA~!!! Don't cry or get angry at me PLEASE~!!! v(^3^)v <== This will cheer you up~!!

10/15/10

Yesterday, I went to school. I knew my friends won't be going but I had to go because I entered some competition and I don't wanna disappoint my partner. So, basically our school had invite KOTEX to talk about our kesihatan. The Kotex representative and her partner actually show us how to wear a pad!!! EWWWW... Her partner even brought a pantie to demonstrate. It was disgusting. They really was being too open-minded and talk a lot about those disgusting stuff. 


After the ceramah, they hand out free pads and a book about female's health. After that I went for the competition but unfortunately I din't make it into the finals. But that's alright because at least I got some experience in competing. Then, all form 3 have to gather at the hall for some activities. The teacher wanted us to create some pantun or the other choice was a singing competition suggested by the malay students. Half of the student including me din't bother because we don't know how to create pantun, so we kinda slack around at the back of the hall. 


The malay students at the front was using the microphone singing bravely. Which was kinda annoying... The teacher saw us slacking around so she came and scold us. IHATEHERALOT. So she decided to create another activity, I was being group with others in a team. So we played the game and my team won, but the teacher was a bit unsatisfied because me and my friends were in the team. So she said congratulate to us for winning, but although  "SOME" of us din't actually participate but we can actually win. If me and my friends din't cooperate how can we win. LOL


Btw, today is my mum's birthday !!!! Happy birthday MUMMY...
PMR is over.. My school has organize some activities which is not really interesting. But being at home is somehow boring too. All my friends have plans for their holiday, for me I can only stay home and online.Can't wait to get my PMR result, on that day is also my dad's birthday. Such coincidence =.=.


To XXX:  Thx for sending me that message..

120810

~SHORT NOTICE~

~I won't be able to online much now because of PMR and percubaan PMR..~

~Wish time would turn back.. or maybe judgement day would come ~

England lose Argh.  

After reading someone post, I really don't have anything to say anymore. Since you never thought of my feeling when you posted that post, then I shall not bother or even consider about your feeling too. ( Although I know its me but I just can't stand it anymore. ) As you can see, I NEVER told anyone about my feeling except for my sister and her. The thing is that I can't believe you said i denied it or I wouldn't want to admit it. Why should I admit to the thing that I never told out before, if I did I would have say it out LOUD. You shouldn't simply blah out things that isn't true.

Actually you din't saw my true colors, is that you don't understand me. Plus I don't think we should involve her(XR) in this case, making her(XR) the middle person. I already told you that I never said that, is just that you choose to believe in others than me. Maybe this is because she had tuition with you, so maybe you will trust her more. I don't know and I don't care. And also maybe you trust her more because when you had problems, she was there for you. You say people don't give you chance to explain, but did you give me the chance to explain? You did ask me some question, i answer but you didn't trust me. Then why should you ask me the questions at the first place.

The reason that I din't talk and bother you because I felt awkward after what had happen during that time. Is not that I don't want but I wanted to talk to you. I just don't know how. I'm just like you, I don't usually take the first step not like my sister. I don't know this situation will make you feel like I hate you or something else. 

Since you wanted to know my feeling towards you so badly, I guess. Before that, you asked XR and Steph. I don't know whether you asked anyone else before. So here is how I feel about you. You always think you're right but you're wrong. I hate the way you treated my sister. Although she doesn't felt that way but I do. "and what i heard is you said you dont like it cos i was like i want things to be done as what i want to" I did told my sister about this but not Steph. So i don't know how the hell did she get that info. I don't like the way you  force people to tell something that they can't and after you can't get the info you will make faces. I guess that's all, these feeling doesn't mean i hate you. That's just my feeling towards my friend, nobody is perfect. You're still my friend.


Before I read that post you posted, I wanted to post something nice. After I that post I really can't stand it. I'm just giving my opinion, just like how you give your opinion towards other. After all these things happened, both of us felt sad or angry, mixed up feelings (I don't know whether you felt any of that feelings). I won't take this like the end of the world, like how you won't take this like you have cancer or what. Life goes on. After all these things happened, both of us felt sad or angry, mixed up feelings.


To Anonymous: Don't simply comment things, you should know the truth before you comment.